most nerve racking HSC day in my life

. Today is the HSC performance day. I am nervous. 

I did 3 units Music for HSC at my time and  I rocked it. Wasn't nervous. 

I send kids for HSC music every year and I was never this nervous either. 


In the past all my HSC kids have been with me for a very long time by the time they are in year 12 they are ready to rock it.  Take next year for example,  by the time I send Lucy, Gretel, Brandon or Hannah for HSC, they would have been with me for 12 years. The entire childhood in this studio. Their technique will be so strong and their performance experience should be so solid by then. 


I always said to all the kids, I will only want to teach you till the 3rd term of year 12. Even if you want to come back I will never take you because it's time to move on. And no need to be sad because NO ONE IS DEAD.  Our work has done but our relationship and love is not ended. 


Millie hasn't been with me very long and this Quarantine year makes things very difficult too. No matter how good the teacher is, one thing that we can't teach you is the performing experience. By doing a lot of performing you learn how to deal with performing anxiety, build up stage presence and powerful self talk. Because of the quarantine all the performing opportunities are gone. This is precisely the reason why I am nervous. 


This morning 1 hour before the exam at school she sent me a sentimental thank you and love you susie blablabla text. I was like, YOU GET ON ZOOM RIGHT NOW. (Sometimes I wonder why a logical person like me can be in business like this.)


One hour before you get on that stage, You need tp smile and have fun. Always remember why you are singing For HSC. It’s because YOU LOVE SINGING.


I feel as if just sent a daughter sitting for HSC.


Every single year I said I am retiring but I can never stop because it’s so addictive you have no idea. (I am a lot older than all the kids and parents think thanks to the asian gene). At least I need to do it till Emma finishes HSC in 5 years time. 


Time to celebrate. Good job Millie. We did it.